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Grace-filled eyes

Posted: August 21, 2015 in Uncategorized
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Grace is not a created substance….At least that’s what Wikipedia says… (yeah, I know, cause THAT’s the authority on life)

But isn’t that how we treat grace? Day in and day out, we strive to please God when the simple truth is, we cannot even get close.

We open car doors, help little old ladies across the street and give our $1.00 to the peddler on the side of the road.  We offer a smile to the lonely, care for the sick and pick up the pieces of a broken heart…all in His name.  The fact is, we cannot please God with our works because grace isn’t a substance that can be created…it just simply IS.

I’ve struggled with this concept – very recently.  I’ve somehow attached my “godliness” to my works, meaning if I’m not walking “godly”, I must not be… but grace isn’t something that is created.  Somehow this unmerited favor has made it’s way into my mind’s eye which says “My works must earn His good graces.”

It’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that no matter what I do or don’t do, He can never love me more than He does right now.  Whether I am a sinner knocking on gates of hell or a saint walking towards light, He loves me the same.  In my humanness, I don’t understand this concept.  We love conditionally – whether we admit it or not.  Some people we like and others we tolerate.  We profess “love” when in fact, it’s very different from the love of the Father.

Don’t believe me?  Let’s try something…  I will give you two names.  Think on these names and figure out what emotions they invoke in you…

Mother Teresa…….  Charles Manson

Two people, complete opposite sides of the spectrum.  Now I can profess that I love each of them, because they are God’s children but my view is distorted through my human eyes.  In all honesty, I would love Mother Teresa more than Charles Manson, for obvious reasons…. But the Agape kind of love that God pours out on us shows unconditional love to both- the same love to both. 

So we have established that our human love is conditional….so is our grace.  We give grace to people every day- unmerited favor in our day to day lives. That man you allowed to go in front of you at the grocery store- you showed grace. Or that smile you gave to a lonely heart- grace was attached. Have you noticed the people we don’t give our grace to? The less attractive or downtrodden…. Someone who doesn’t look like us or act like us. 

Earlier I told you that I was struggling with the concept of grace in my life- not only the Father’s grace to me but my showing grace to others. I recently found out one of the precious ladies that we go in to minister to committed a horrendous crime to bring her to her current state- something that absolutely makes me sick to my stomach to even think about.  I’ve loved on her. Prayed for her. Cried with her….but now due to my recent knowledge, my grace isn’t sufficient for her- it seems my humanness says “off with her head” while God is saying “but My grace is sufficient…. Why isn’t yours?”

My humanness and His spirit are conflicted…..  I see Charles Manson but God sees neither Charles nor Teresa- just a soul in need of a Savior.  Offering grace seems difficult on my part but I am reminded: grace isn’t something that is created, it just is.  When I go back in the jail, I don’t want to see her in human eyes, but through grace-filled eyes.

In my struggle, I want to remind you: grace is something that is not created. We cannot earn or lose the grace that God has bestowed on us- we cannot gain or lose something that exists no matter what situation surrounds it.  Today as you go about your busy life, remember grace. When you encounter someone who isn’t like you, show grace. When you find a difficult situation, show grace.  (I wonder how different the world would be if we gave unconditional grace?)

Most importantly, remember that He loves you- not because of what you have or haven’t done, but simply because you are His.  




It’s been a while since I last blogged.  I really need to get back to blogging on a more consistent basis but nevertheless; I have a message from the Lord to share….


Last night, I had a dream.  It was not anything special – in fact, it was not until hours later after I woke up that God began to reveal the importance which I must share with you.

It was a rather short dream.  In fact, I think I had it between hitting the snooze button this morning.  It started off with me at a church service which is nothing unusual for me.  One of my closest and oldest friends was preaching a message which again, is nothing out of the ordinary.  She is an awesome woman of God who hears from the Lord and truly has an anointing to preach the Word from whatever platform she is given.

I was sitting in the very middle of the congregation.  People all around me were raising their hands, standing up, shouting, etc…  Let’s just say that the “Spirit” was moving.

At first, I was distracted by all the commotion in the congregation but it was if God fine-tuned my ear to hear a short clip of what the woman of God was saying….

“SANSBANE….  Hear me when I tell you… SANSBANE.   God says ‘SANSBANE!’…..”   With muffled shouts of “glory” and “hallelujah” in the background, she continued on with this “SANSBANE” message getting the full support and encouragement of the congregation.

On a side note, I’ve been churching for a while now – while I am always learning new things, usually some of the message I have already heard but as I woke up from my dream “SANSBANE” stuck in my mind.

I immediately went to the information highway (that is the Internet to you younger folks) and began to Google “SANSBANE.”  I thought maybe it was an old herb or a word of dead language – surely this SANSBANE has some sort of meaning – after all, dreams are to enlighten us.   To my surprise, the word does not exist-  No such word in ANY language….

So writing it off, I crawled out of my bed and began to get ready for the day.



Why can I not get this word out of my head?  On my way to work, I decided that I should probably ask the One who gave me the dream what SANSBANE is and here is what He said,

“Absolutely nothing.”

I know right?  At this point I am totally confused and begin my mile-a-minute question session to which He promptly said, “SHUT UP and listen.”  (Yes, He talks to me like that because sometimes that is the ONLY way He can get through to me.)

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He said, “My people perish from a lack of knowledge…. Actually YOU perish from a lack of knowledge.”   Then He began to replay my dream – this time showing me with more clarity the things I had already seen…

This woman of God in particular is of no importance to the dream in and of itself.  It was the position she held both in my heart and to the church that was the important aspect.  At first I was like, “God?!  I know she is from You” but He began to show me that the devil often uses familiarity as a foundation for ignorance.


He then began to show me the congregation in detail.  The man on the front row stood up and shouted “glory.”  The woman behind him raised her hand in agreement to which the lady beside her gave her a loud “preach that sister” while nodding her head.  I immediately was taken back to the SANSBANE message:  “SANSBANE is the power in which…..  it was used…..  God has given you SANSBANE…”

The message still made NO sense.  God began to show me that the congregation was ignorant – That we, as DOERS of the Word of God are ignorant.  We hear a hyped up message about nothing and scream and shout like it is something of great importance.  We are IGNORANT!

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Study to show yourself approved (2 Tim 2:15)!  Research the Scriptures for yourself and do not take anyone’s (no matter how Godly they are) word for it.  Do not be ignorant of the devil’s devises (2 Cor 2:11) – He is smart and cunning!  He knows how to lace a lie with just enough truth to make it believable.

There are cracks of ignorance in the church’s foundation – cracks of laziness and cracks of complacency.  God said, “My people perish from a lack of knowledge” or in other words, “YOU perish from a lack of knowledge.”

SANSBANE…. This is the word of the Lord to the church.

SANSBANE…. Familiarity breeds ignorance.
SANSBANE…  Ignorance breeds death.

The devil has us right where he wants us.  He has us in SANSBANE and we are utterly unaware but completely satisfied.   As a people of God, we should be well informed not misinformed.  God will speak to you directly.  Yes, He DOES use others to tell you something but you should always seek out the Source before you take it to the bank as truth.  It is time for us to crawl out of SANBANE and become the educated, informed people He created us to be!




It amazes me how God can use the littlest things in my life to speak the greatest messages. 

I was driving to work this morning, minding my own business when I saw the strangest thing – a penny.  Now in and of itself, a penny is pretty much worthless.  Can you think of the last time you bought something for a penny?  Yeah, me neither.

In fact, I think it costs more to make a penny than it does to spend a penny, which is why the Treasury in its infinite wisdom has stopped making true copper pennies.  Why don’t they just eliminate pennies altogether?

So back to the drawing board, why did God pull my attention towards this small, insignificant penny?  What on earth could He possibly teach me from this single image?

In a world where we “Bring it on” “like a Boss” while we are “popping bottles in the club” screaming “YOLO” because we are trying to “keep up with the Kardashians, God began to ask me, “Are you dropping pennies?”


Have you ever seen a child find a “lucky penny” on the ground?  It’s amazing how that one, miniscule penny can have the power to change that child’s life for the moment.  Tears turn to smiles and laughter and the child will carry it in their pocket all day, reaching in every once in a while to make sure it is still there – to be reminded that they were chosen to carry such a token.

Even as adults, we feel special when we see a shiny coin on the sidewalk.  Some of us smile as we are picking it up and others acknowledge its insignificance, leaving it for another captor to find.  In either case despite its poor appearance, we all feel somewhat distinguished from the masses as it seems we were hand-picked for the moment.

Have you ever thought maybe pennies were dropped on purpose?   Maybe the owner of the penny was paying his newfound “luck” forward by dropping a penny at the grocery store for another unsuspecting individual to pick up?  Maybe the wind blew a penny where it would cross your path and you would know how special you were?  Just maybe…there is a purpose for pennies.

So back to the original question God asked me –

“Are you dropping pennies?”


In this day and age, we have forgotten how to drop pennies.  We have forgotten how to bless our neighbor by dropping a single coin in their path.  We have forgotten that sometimes a child needs a dropped penny to smile and laugh again.  Maybe we forget because we are too busy to see the path ahead of us- too busy scouring Facebook or Twitter to find the latest trend, too busy texting friends, too busy trying to get ahead of our coworkers for the promotion, too busy playing church on Sunday but living like a demon on Monday… too busy.   We forget about the pennies that were laid out before us when we were younger.  We forget about how those who came before us knew that dropping pennies was as important as breathing.  After all without dropped pennies, breathing just becomes existence and existence isn’t life.


Am I saying that we should liter the earth with millions of pennies?  Of course not!  In fact, I’m really not talking about money at all.   I’m talking about dropping blessings on others – small, miniscule blessings.  If you smile at someone, you dropped a penny.  If you helped an elderly lady put her groceries in her car, you dropped a penny.   If you allowed someone ahead of you in line, you dropped a penny.   If you told your child “I love you,” you dropped a penny.

Do you see where I am going?

A hug, a smile, a sincere “how are you?”- these things don’t cost us anything but maybe a little bit of our time.  To those who receive the dropped pennies, it usually means the world to them.    If you have ever had a bad day, you know what I’m talking about.  One smile or sincere “I’m sorry” can make a day better that has already gone to hell and back.

I want to challenge you to drop pennies everywhere you go. 
Drop pennies of hope. 
Drop pennies of joy. 
Drop pennies of love. 
Drop pennies of forgiveness. 
Maybe one day, we’ll see that dropping pennies CAN change the world!